I am so lucky... Blessed

My eldest daughter is having a pacemaker inserted tomorrow morning at 7:00am. She’s 33 years old. We found out last week that her recent fainting spells were due to her heart actually stopping for long periods of time. At one point her heart did not beat for 14 seconds! That’s a long time ... I timed it ... I’m scared.

Yesterday the nurses told my daughter that she was lucky her heart stopped while she was standing since her fall was likely the only thing that jolted her heart back to beating. Yeah lucky ... The doctor’s office said she was lucky that the she had an “incident” after they sent her home with a heart monitor or they might not have known what the problem was. Yeah, real lucky ... My dearest friend who is a physician told me how lucky we are that the doctor doing the surgery was one of the best. So very lucky ... I know they all mean well, but I do not want my daughter’s life dependent upon luck. But it is not. God is sovereign.

Fifteen years ago I lost my first wife Janie to Lukemia. I was left with three teenage daughters and no hope. I always thought I was in charge of my life. That she and I made a great team, had a great love and would have a great life together. God is sovereign.

I guarded my daughters closely after I lost their Mom and worried that tragedy might spin their lives out of control. But in that pit God granted me grace. My three girls blossomed and God sent me a new love. When you are in a low place it’s impossible to see the horizon. It’ dark and cold and you wonder if the sun will ever shine again. God is sovereign.

Are you ever surprised by how much we love our children? What we are willing to do, to sacrifice, in order to give them what they need? My daughter needs a healthy heart but I cannot give it to her. God is sovereign. What a blessing to know, to rest, in the love of Our Lord. What I cannot give, He can ... what I cannot endure, He will ... what I cannot understand, His grace clarifies. There is a song we sing at church that always rings true to me:

Blessed be Your name when the sun's shining down on me
When the world's "all as it should be"
Blessed be Your name

And blessed be Your name on the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

I do not know God’s specific will, but I do know God’s plan. His plan is for all to come to Him and be saved. My daughter knows this. As she faces a problem that I cannot solve she does not depend on any man’s luck, but rather she can lean on the God-man who loves her better than I. There is no such thing as chance occurrences or luck, only God’s sovereign Will for our lives. I often say we don’t really live our lives as if we believe what we say we believe. Me most of all. God is sovereign.
Matthew 7:11 "If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him!"

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